| Dreams |
[May. 6th, 2012|11:47 pm] |
New York 2012
Latin America 2014
Wait for us. |
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| Gone but not forgotten |
[Apr. 16th, 2012|07:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Jason Mraz - Everything is Sound | ] |
The last few weeks flew by so quickly I didn't even have time to update this journal. Actually that's a lie; I did have the time but I was spending it on the net and on my american television shows.
Since the last time I was here, I got admitted to UCLA, accepted my offer and applied for housing at UCLA. Also, I finally submitted my surety form to URA so now what's left to do is to wait for them to prepare the deed. Things seem to be going just fine and I hope it continues that way. Every day I think about what my life will be like over at UCLA and paint myself a beautiful picture to make myself feel stoked. High hopes indeed, but it is completely inevitable. These is one of the rare times when uncertainty is a good thing.
To keep my mind occupied, I've been focused on my relief teaching job. 6 weeks into the job and I really feel I'm not cut out to be a teacher. I'm too self-conscious, too concerned about what my students think of me to last in this career. But, I made a commitment so I'm gonna press on and finish the next 3 months. To be honest, it's quite enjoyable planning lessons, imparting knowledge and marking scripts, but after all, I'm only 21 and I need to be doing something more, something way beyond this right now. |
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| Wisconsin replies! |
[Feb. 19th, 2012|09:23 pm] |
So pleasantly surprised when I saw the email from U-Wisconsin-Madison yesterday! Anyway, I got accepted into the school and that really made my day. Regardless of the outcome of UCLA, I know I'm US-bound (if nothing goes wrong with my scholarship)! I'm already fantasizing about my life in the states and I REALLY CANNOT WAIT TO START.
UCLA is expected to reply in March so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it'll be good news when it arrives.
On a separate note, this coming week is my final week as a full-timer at A&F. Gonna get through this last week, like I have done the last 6 weeks. |
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| Fleeting time |
[Feb. 9th, 2012|10:36 am] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Glee Cast - Fix You | ] |
I like how time passes quickly nowadays at work. Just this last week, I was so busy handling shipment I had my lunch at 3pm and ended my work at 7.30pm instead of the supposed 5pm. News of my cessation as a full-timer somehow got circulated and I'm getting questioned on the reasons behind my choice and my future ahead. Pretty weird but I'm already missing work as a full-timer there, and am definitely going to miss the awesome friends I was lucky to make in my short 2-3months there.
Stoked about work later - we're updating the whole floor set tonight! |
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| Life of a full timer |
[Feb. 7th, 2012|09:35 pm] |
Where do I even start? 3 weeks ago, I was contemplating whether I should convert to a full time impact at Abercrombie & Fitch or just be happy with the time and freedom that comes with the part time job. In the end, I decided to go with the former because of the money and well, my friend convinced me it will be a good way to make time go faster.
It's been fun getting to meet a lot of new people and make many new friends but I'm so glad this is all going to end in 2.5 weeks. As much as I love the people and sometimes the things I do, I really need to do something more academic, like teaching, which happens to be my next full time job after Feb. Nothing like some brain stimulation to prepare for college right? |
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| Relief |
[Jan. 14th, 2012|10:58 am] |
I know it probably sounds bad, but I would not mind if some people just disappeared completely from my life. Not that I hate them; it's just that with them around, I know I'll never be happy.
So one day when they're finally gone, will I feel sad? Yes. But more importantly, I think I'll finally be relieved. |
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| Christmas |
[Dec. 18th, 2011|10:07 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Glee Cast - All I Want For Christmas Is You | ] |
Usually I wouldn't mind not celebrating Christmas but this year, maybe because for once I'm not tied down by NS or the thought of having to do NS, I realize I really, really want the real deal - y'know the turkey, log cakes, presents, wool sweaters and the likes. But guess what, my friends are not free to celebrate together, so I crazily signed up for double shifts on Christmas Eve.
Standing and doing laborious work for 10 hours is probably not the best way to spend the holiday eve, but if there's anything I want for Christmas this year, it would be to make these upcoming 10 hours on Saturday fun and joyous.
Of course, even though I know it's not going to happen, I also wish for more presents!!! Santa needs a tropical counterpart, damn. |
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| Bittersweet |
[Dec. 1st, 2011|09:37 pm] |
Such a cliche, I know but there is really no other way to describe this ambivalent feeling of relief and sadness at the same time.
Tomorrow, I collect my long lost pink I/C and boy am I glad. It signifies many things - freedom, a new chapter of my life and the entry into adulthood. Almost two years ago, I was lamenting and dreading everything. Looking back, it was silly of me to think that way. I think it's safe to say that NS was one of the more beneficial events of my life given how much I've learnt.
It's always tough to say goodbye, but I need to move on and step into the life that defines who I really am. I'm grateful for the lessons, the friends and the experience, regardless good or bad and I will carry these memories with me as I continue on my journey.
Like the two years in JC, these two unique years in NS flew by in a blink of an eye. Time really passes by quickly and that is a good thing sometimes. In fact, right now, all I hope is for it to pass even quicker, just so that my life ahead can finally become certain. |
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| It keeps on raining |
[Nov. 20th, 2011|04:48 pm] |
I've always been a fan of rainy days; not only because it keeps the temperatures low, but it also calms me down. Lately the rain keeps coming down and it has made me feel happy, even though sometimes travelling became more difficult than usual.
I finally purchased my new camera, a nikon d5100 and I must say I'm really excited to begin on my photography journey. I have the bad habit of expecting to be the best or at least, attain some level of professionalism in whatever I do too much too soon - and that's partly the reason why I feel frustrated most of the time. That's why the rain comes in handy. In any case, I hope I get there some day, preferably before I leave for college.
He/She, my camera, is named Charlie by the way. I haven't figured out if I should give it a gender or whether I even want to. I also don't know if my inspiration came from Charlie Brown or the lovely Charlie with enhanced memory from Heroes but don't you think Charlie evokes a sense of charm and purity?? It's probably just me and my weird imaginations.
ORD arrives in slightly less than 2 weeks and that's where my real life begins. Excited? Yes. Nervous? Oh, yes. Ready to own my life? Hell yeah. |
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| Zen mode |
[Oct. 10th, 2011|09:28 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | life; ns | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The Wanted - Lightning | ] |
It's so near yet so far. I've never felt so strongly for a statement. ORD is in 8 weeks and I really can't wait for everything to be over. I don't even care whether I have something to fill my days after NS or whether I'm going to be poor, I just want to get out of this hellhole. It's bad, real bad and I wonder how I even managed to survive the last 1 year 8 months. This place is almost impossible.
People tell me to look for the good. I think the only good lies in the select few good people around who actually understand what I'm going through and not judge me. It's sad actually, how my life revolves around something so depressing.
Anyway Docs said that my injured foot could be a ligament sprain or it could be a stress fracture. We'll just have to wait and see. Regardless, I'm not supposed to do anything that will cause compression and that will mean no running which also means disruption to my marathon training plan. If it really develops into a stress fracture, I will most likely have to cancel the 42km. I'm feeling pretty bumped about it but I guess that's part of sports ain't it? Now I can only hope to recover (or not so I can get an MC), and get back on track.
Meanwhile, I hope I gain some sympathy with my foot... |
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